November 13, 2013

Writing in a Dark Place

Taken by Aunt Genocide, about a year after the events depicted in this week's Blogger Idol
A few words about today's Blogger Idol piece.

One of the things the judges have always asked of the contestants is to keep our voices true. True to our writing, of course, but mostly, true to our blogs.

And sometimes, that's a problem for me. Because I have several voices in my head- I'm very schizophrenic these days.

Most of the time I have a blogging voice in my head, and I have a memoirist in my head. And they don't talk the same way- which is as much a surprise to me as to anyone.

Me, a year or so before this week's Blogger Idol tale
And so I set out to write this post about something I'd never shared before from the voice of the blogger- and it was going to be FUNNY. And self deprecating. And have lots of gifs. But then I got to thinking, do I really have no secrets? Nothing at all?

And then it came to me. Something I had never written about, never even talked about, but only because it wasn't exactly a secret anyway.

Everybody knew what was going on. It's just that almost nobody confronted me.

And my scars are still there, plain as day, for everyone to see. It's just that nobody asks about them.

So yes, this was a hard post to write. And I have no doubt that for those of my readers who knew me then, and who know me now, this will be hard to read. And I'm sorry for that. Feel free to vote and avert your eyes.

But I am proud of this little piece of storytelling.

And I am far enough away from the person I was fifteen or sixteen or seventeen years ago to look at her somewhat dispassionately, and to see and feel things from her perspective without actually BEING her.

Does that make sense?

Enjoy the post, please. And maybe learn from it a little bit.

And as always- please vote for me.


  1. Wow, that was intense and as the judges said, in a class of its own compared to the other posts. I liked your writing style too, weighted, pensive and definitely with a tinge of adolescence. Hope it does well and congrats!

  2. Brilliant post, you are the clear winner, as you truly gave up your deepest darkest secret. Wonderful writing, I can relate to much of it. Happy to know you got through that difficult time in your life.

  3. Your post was so heartfelt. The others were not anywhere near on the same level. Happy you moved onto another week!



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