October 2, 2013

Today I have Four Year Olds

The birthday girls- DD in dots, SI in signs
It's been quite a week.

Last Monday, I took Poppa to a baseball game for his birthday. We watched the Pirates clinch the post-season, and it was AMAZING.

Me n' Poppa
Then LaLa came over for another birthday, and to celebrate my big girls' big day a few days early.

Another Birthday!
And then Grandma and Grandpa came to town for the party. A Care Bears party, as requested. I managed to dig up Care Bear hats and plates.

Little girls and parties are awesome.
I'd been slowly collecting lots of vintage Care Bears on ebay for months. So instead of gift bags, I had the kids do a rainbow treasure hunt.

Everyone got a different color

...and followed their streamer to find their treasure!
And the treasure? Big stuffed bears for everyone.

We even had a Birthday Care Bear Parade!
I think they were a hit.

Everyone loved their bears. :)
Also, as per request, we had "Rainbow cake with rainbows on it and Care Bears and Wish Bear and Bedtime Bear and TWO rainbow roses!"

The recipe:

That cake took me an entire freakin' day of "baking" with two nearly-four-year-olds and a basically-a-toddler. But in the end?

Worth it.

The next day M and I put together their present.

Yeah, a bunk bed. And now we're working on rearranging RH's room so that all three girls will share the green room.

And then yesterday was the girls' party at school with cupcakes. And also the present extravaganza with Grandmommy and Poppa at home. And then I barely managed to keep my eyes open to watch the Pirates CRUSH the Reds in their first post-season game they've won since the last year Poppa and I sort of went to a ball game together (we took my friend JS), and I passed out on top of the covers in all my clothes.

Seriously, when I woke up in the morning M was relieved. He'd woken up a few times in the night to make sure I was still breathing. My sweet husband.

And I really can't wrap my head around the idea that my children are four years old. And suddenly, my relationship with them has changed. I can't explain how it happened, but something yesterday- on their birthday- fundamentally changed me.

Maybe it was standing in their room while they napped. NAPPED. At the same time. At four years old. I looked at their faces, SI's pale eyelids, DD still limbs, flopped gracefully over her stuffed dragon...

I am so grateful for this time. They are everything I ever wanted. Everything. And when I look at their faces, I can still see the babies that slept on me in the rocking chair in the dark hours of the night as I sang lullaby after lullaby.

I see them, erupted into these... children.

They were flower girls a month ago- did I mention that?
Children that I suddenly trust more.

So much more that I am ashamed with myself for not seeing how big they are, how mature they are, how competent they are, sooner.

This morning I talked with the director at preschool about splitting them up. Sitting in their classroom and watching them interact with the other little kids, I saw that maybe it's not just me holding onto their littleness, maybe it's them. Maybe we're all holding onto what was comfortable, what we'd come to know.

But what we have now is a family full of growing children. A toddler who might not toddle but can practically have a conversation.

And sometimes supporting them means pushing them a little outside their comfort zone.


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  1. Happy Birthday to your girls! I love the Care Bears theme... I used to love those when I was a little girl. :) Sounds like it was a great week, albeit a life-changing one. It's bittersweet to watch our children get older.

  2. Happy Happy Birthday to your girls. This post... is just perfection.

  3. You touched me in so many ways with this post. My set up is the exact opposite of yours: a 4 year old and 1 year old twins. I felt almost exactly like you when my baby turned 4. Plus I felt we had lost some time together because the twins' needs interfered with my time with 4 year old. But then she turned 4 and it seemed like she could understand more, wait a little more patiently and understand a bit more how much I loved her even when my hands were full of double trouble. Happy Birthday to your girls! My baby twins turn 2 this weekend!

  4. Love that cake! Wow - super amazing!! I loved the care bears as a kid too - your daughters are lucky (Ha! That's a bear!!) to have a mom and dad that made their day as awesome as could be:) Thanks for hooking up today (The Shitastrophy - but I'm sure you knew that!)



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